When I was 3-4 years old and my parents would tell me “maybe tomorrow”. Then I would say, “Is today tomorrow?” Hahaha!! As grown ups now, we can see that today is NEVER tomorrow, because today is today, and tomorrow will always be tomorrow, because tomorrow means one single day after today! That sounds like a Dr. Seuss book.
I could not WAIT to get out of the yucky home situation I was in. I wanted to hurry up and have my OWN family and show everyone that I could DO IT!! A normal family with normal kids with normal relationships and emotions. Ahhh, what a dream, right? Except for the fact that I was NOT emotionally equipped for that (but that’ll be for another day.)
We have ALL heard the saying, “Stop and smell the roses”, right?
Jesus said it plainly when He said, “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” Matthew 6:34
How true is that?
When you spend day after day after day wishing for tomorrow, you miss out on today!! We obsess about all the things you will be able to do and make a life for yourself. Goals are GREAT when created for the right reasons. I didn’t have any for ME. I wanted to get out, get married have my family and show EVERYONE I am NOT what everyone expected me to be. But that wasn’t so much FOR me, but for me to say “Na na na na boooo booo. I did this better than youuuuu.” I LOVE my little family, don’t get me wrong. But can you see that my vision was skewed a bit? I should have taken some time for myself, by myself, living on my own and seeking therapy and Christian counseling to learn how to replace the LIES I believed as truths with the actual truth. I should have taken that time to learn who I was on my own and what it was I wanted. I have learned SO much and changed in astronomical ways in the past two years. All of this is FANTASTIC, but how much better of a wife and mom would I have been if I had taken the time to work on me while those layers of pain were still on the surface?
This isn’t about guilt. This is just a realization I have had recently. I didn’t know how to cope. I instantly just packed soil over the top of the many-layered onion so it could NEVER be seen again. But things in nature seem to always find a way, right? The hurts and destructive ways were engrained in me and just like a weed in your beautiful sod lawn, it just pokes up out of nowhere. I was so focused on getting AWAY from my problematic situation, that I didn’t stop and think about reality. That I AM a product of who I am around. I am a product of my thoughts. I have the power to change the direction of my life, yes!! BUT, these things have to be worked through and perhaps taught by someone else. For me, that was with honest, Biblical teachers and counselors. Taking thoughts captive. Replacing negative things with truths from the Bible. Words our Creator actually spoke into existence FOR us.
Today or Tomorrow? Definitely focus on today first. Goals are healthy. Chat with God about your goals and pray about them. Make all the goals you want. Just stop and recognize whether your goals are actually FOR YOU. Ask yourself if are the goal is about proving something about yourself to OTHERS or if you made the goal because you are comparing yourself to others. Take some time to journal it all out.
Your today may be someone else’s yesterday. Your tomorrow may be someone else’s today. That’s just how life is; we are all on different journeys. Focus on the space you are in right now, because God is right there with you. There is something He is wanting you to learn from it. He tells us in Romans 8:28 that He can take yucky, bad, sad, destructive, anxious-ridden situations and turn it into GOOD!
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Blessings and Love,